(Sunday, November 06, 2005)
fucking hell, zoe is back.
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let me start with first half of the night. i went to gan's to get some gabe's stuff. she's been lying there for a week, fatigued and lack of usual activities. fuck all, i hate to see her lying around like that, suffering from abstinence of activity. oh well, we're going for a road trip tomorrow. wherever the fucking hell that might fucking be.
my car ran out of petrol for the third fucking time in 3 day's span. (oh well, you can't fucking complain cause if you're using like a banged up car that's not really yours, eh?) so i went to the petrol station to get some fuel. and fucking cunt, the caltex pump is extremely sluggish. i think 30 bucks of fuel takes about 10 minutes to go in. almost double the time that of usual petrol activity. so i went outside the petrol station with gabe and stood there like a reporter idiot under the fucking rain. not like i was gonna snap any photos and shit but i just want to fucking drench myself in the rain a little, and at the same time anticipating rach's call. since rach was supposed to have something on and she didn't call, i went back home to sleep.
for the first time since last week, i managed to hike onto the bed before 1am. more like 10muthafuckingpm at night. you know, just to recuperate and have some decent high flying dreams and interupted sleep. then i get all these rapid roll-over images of everything i sincerely have no fucking interest in. as a result, like any other normal human being, i couldn't fall asleep immediately. when i've fallen asleep, nightmares were crashing into me, conjugaling some fucking mellowdramatic and fearful lack of reality gravity. like it couldn't be worst, i got a message from tze yee at 3am telling me she's in singapore. then i just kept on wondering what the hell is she doing there subconsciously, even while i was sleeping. then i dreamt that i'm making plans to visit her. with some ponies and sheeps and giraffes.
this is shit, muthafucker.
7:11 AM
that fucking traitor
liEw, 18 and since 2002, 270lbs, 5ft, brazilian chinese russian icelander hybrid, black eyes, short black hair, racist, antisocial, semi-alcoholic, ignorant, exhales profanity, black-poetry fanatic
