(Sunday, June 05, 2005)
i look forward for summer, not for the weather, it's summer everyday in beloved malaysia. the summer film festival/releases. fantastic 4, madagascar, war of the worlds, batman begins, mr/mrs. smith et cetera. the school's gonna start soon, then the complexes are all mine again.
just look at the releases, all the way till early august i think. it's
even music videos look better on summer.
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i went to my auntie's house today. she's got 5 months old granddaughter. mom insisted that i put her in my arms cause she was going ga ga, ga ga while looking at my direction. i convinced myself that it was the plain lame wall behind me, not me, kids have crazy eyes. however, i'm a fucking walking talking kid magnet. they love me like they adore the purple dinasour in the television that goes i love you, you love me...
out of cordiality, i had to hold her because i can't tell my mom and auntie i fucking hate kids and this heap of muscles and fat here is not exampted too, so get the fuck off! that would just launch my auntie's eyes out like missiles from out of their silo. her grandma would be crying, the grandpops would be shouting. so mom ushered her into my arms. quietly, i told baby don't you fucking piss on my quiksilver shorts dammit, don't you even dare! i'll fucking crucify you, then maim your ass here and now and she didn't, how lovely, that saves me the trouble but the kid was stuck with me for half an hour. then mom cynically said if i LOVE her so much, we should take her back home for the day. it was at that very moment that i almost threw her away from me like how fast 1 can throw the no.2 gf away upon meeting the no.1 halfway and go AWOL.
holding them for 20 lousy minutes doesn't eridicate my antagomism towards babies/kids.
3:01 PM
that fucking traitor
liEw, 18 and since 2002, 270lbs, 5ft, brazilian chinese russian icelander hybrid, black eyes, short black hair, racist, antisocial, semi-alcoholic, ignorant, exhales profanity, black-poetry fanatic
