even in the world where people can be superficial, stupid and selfish, there's still hope...
(Monday, June 13, 2005)
music of the moment: Pete Yorn's Lose You Ivy's I've got a Feeling
that's just very true. there will always be something that'll keep you going on and on. doesn't matter how low you fall, how ugly everything arounds you turns into, there's that tiny blooming voice in your head, giving you all the reason to go on...
no fucking worries, not gonna commit suicide. not even thinking of it at all. and fuck no, i'm not denying the truth. and i'm not turning into a hysterical moron like you-know-who.
it's just that i'm having problem sleeping lately. one of those fucking winter-like melancholic season of my life where i'm just absorbed into nuisance. something's missing in my life. it's a cliche. if you're rich and famous, you wish you have more real friends. when you're penniless and unpopular, you wish the money and friends would drop from the sky. one would never mercy themselves from achieving more in life.
mine's slightly different. a part of me has been maimed out from my soul. i no longer have a camera to exercise with. tell me how can i sleep?
9:29 PM
that fucking traitor
liEw, 18 and since 2002, 270lbs, 5ft, brazilian chinese russian icelander hybrid, black eyes, short black hair, racist, antisocial, semi-alcoholic, ignorant, exhales profanity, black-poetry fanatic
