reality, anyone?
(Thursday, October 28, 2004)i think god is punishing me for sins i have committed. at least once or twice a week i lose sleep because of some gibberish. babies crying, people-who-think-they're-my-friends call me just to know that they dialled the wrong number, insects.
of all the places in the world, the stupid fucking goddamn mosquito had to fly into my ear last night. pardon me if i'm wrong but i think that bastard got a little bored of sucking blood, got imaginative, had sudden brainstorm and thought, 'i wonder how it's like to go into someone's ear?'. as a result of the dumbitch bloodsucker's boredom/silly creativity, muthafucka's dead and cost me half a night's sleep, and also a not-feeling-so-well ear.
managed to sleep for about 4 hours and i had to drive to penang. when my phone's alarm rang this morning, i swore i wanna throw that noisy bastard into the toilet and flush it. i got some sense into me and didn't. the thought still lingers in my head now...nah, i'm too broke to get rid of it yet...
my brainwaves was clogged with semi-natural instinct to get back to bed, and as though every responses has to go through a thick blurry membrane before it reaches it's destination. as complicated as it could get, yet there's always another combination for more. random pseudo-reality kept on occuring in my head seems like lousy hopeless school band playing bad tunes and it amplifies by seconds. as fucked up as it got, i managed to drive till ipoh before i noticed that my supervisor was asleep and snoring soundly. pissed me off so badly, i jammed the brake hard and woke him up so that he can grab the drive. YES!!! then he started driving like one crazy sonnawabitch. well, i'd be damned if i care cause my brain's dead as soon after i let go of the steering.
what was supposed to be a 2-day trip had to be compressed into a day, meaning i didn't see any of my penang friends and i can say good'fuckin'bye to whatever food scribbled in my thousand miles long list of fancy food. pfah, at least i get to sleep at home tonight. i look like i hadn't sleep for weeks maybe months or have been constantly punched at eye for days. i'm hopeless when i don't sleep enough...
