my parents left for china a few days ago. so basically i am home alone everyday. yeah, everyday alright for the next two weeks.
one of the things that my mom love most is i think gardening. i have so much plants in my frontyard, wait...let me rephrase myself, the plants that my mom has can't fit my frontyard. yup, that's how much my mom love plants. when i told her that she has way too much plants she said she wanna buy more pots for the flowers. haha. well, she's my mom. mom equals to boss and the son equals to driver. so the son has to drive her to get more pots even though he feels that mommy has way too much plants at home. well...
so before my mom took off to china, she asked me to take care of the plants and try not to let any of them die before she's back. commitment. how the hell am i going to kill them anyway? well, for starters i forgot to water them for 2 days already...haha. i only watered them just now...
while watering the plants, i realised that why my mom love the plants so much. yes, COMMITMENT again. if i was older, i think i might love plants more too. as much as my mom i suppose. it's a type of hobby. makes you feel needed by something. so when you're 60 years old and your children abandon you, you won't feel that empty. there's something waiting for you to be done everyday you get up from the bed. i think people with no hobby die earlier than people who does. being needed by something is somehow amazing. something's life is depended on you...
i didn't know that till i water the plan and i can't help but think that i have wasted so much time these two days doing nothing but still forgot (or refuse) to water the plants. when i finally did, i know that i'll have to do that tomorrow cause it won't be another day that i 'have nothing to do'...
i know what i wrote was silly but if you can feel what i feel, maybe you can understand
LiEw, xXx
8:23 PM
that fucking traitor
liEw, 18 and since 2002, 270lbs, 5ft, brazilian chinese russian icelander hybrid, black eyes, short black hair, racist, antisocial, semi-alcoholic, ignorant, exhales profanity, black-poetry fanatic
