spent the entire afternoon printing the thesis today. all 100+++ pages of them. i wonder if people get the same feeling like i do when i am about to submit the thesis. because of the time, effort and uncountable headaches i have to bear with when i was doing the thesis, i really wanted it to be perfect. nothing but perfection. i think this is the first time ever i did something with all my heart! it's hard to believe that it's actually complete but i feel that there's more i can add to...but i don't want to. i need to put a stop at this. it's been haunting me for the past few months because i've been doing more than i should. it's a good thing but i don't think doing too much is okay...argh...i don't think i want to work hard for anything anymore...has anyone saw lotr? the thesis is like the ring to me. it tortures me badly but i still think that it's my precious...MY PRECIOUSSSS...geez i'm sick
bad news. my tv is not working anymore. i turned it on today and it flickers then after that i switched it off. then ee kang, loi and min xi took turns to switch it on and one of them said a smell of something burning came out from the back of the tv. ergh, my precioussss tv is goneee...
details about my tv:
-16-17 inch (even my pc monitor is bigger)
-10+ years old (meaning: it could be around 11-17 years)
-coloured screen
-it's not fucking LCD
-it's my preciousssss...
it's a free gift my dad got some time ago because he bought one of those big ass mobile phones...i got no car, no tv...sigh. this is my life? is this going to be the end of my entertaining life? then the star wars game bought last night cannot run too...erh. bluek!
bluek!
i think i have a weird dream last night too. does dream have any connection to the life we're living? does it anyhow resemble the future? i think deja-vu is a common incident among us. i personally hate deja-vu a lot. i used to get a lot of it when i'm young and now it rarely happen anymore. i think as we grow older, the time that we use to rest is limited and therefore, we can't really get the PERFECT SLEEP. the type of sleep where you fall deeply into. what i'm trying to say is, we don't really use our brain to the max. someone told me that you just use around 30% or something. what i think happens during deja-vu is we actually uses our brains more than we should or accidentally open up the unused area of our brain. maybe lots of rest helps that to happen and in some twisted way, our brains manage to absorb some information about the future subconsiously. well, you can say that deja-vu is a type of time travel...time travel doesn't mean that you have to go to the time...time can also come to you...you know what i mean?
i can really make out a lot of crap when i feel tired and sleepy. i think i need to get some rest in order to be able to see my future...
make trade fair...
LiEw, xXx
8:36 PM
that fucking traitor
liEw, 18 and since 2002, 270lbs, 5ft, brazilian chinese russian icelander hybrid, black eyes, short black hair, racist, antisocial, semi-alcoholic, ignorant, exhales profanity, black-poetry fanatic
